update

pls dun be wry abt me, dun be so gd n kind to me...i am scared...
i dun want to allow myself to sink in n get stuck there, i am stuck enough...
someone juz remind me of yc, always so quiet; always had to guess wat he thinking; nv gd in expressing himself...always i am doing the toking, seriously sometimes i start to see yc shadow in him...i noe i still dun want to give up on yc, but i nv will haf the courage to tell him...
he had gf nw, shld be spending his life very peacefully i dun want to be the person tt stir up a roar
i hate myself for losing the courage to love again...
i hate to wallow in self pity n sadness but i cannot help but emo...
all i can sae is i am feeling better, i had find back abit of smile, laughter though sometime can't help to think it wrong to smile when i juz lost someone nt long ago...i am starting to eat abit more n slp better in the night...though i still will cry, still will daze out at the very least i am better den b4...i am recovering tt all i can sae...