being moody...

i had been super moody tis daes...dun noe y lei...the bank had a court case to fight n i had to appear as witness for the case...i am nt pissed off becoz i had to appear in court...i am unhappy tt my ex boss nv even prepare me or even ask me for consent abt it...he juz push me to the lawyers n think his job is done...i had no choice over tis, i had to appear in court if nt the email will nt be able to present as an evidence in court...i juz had alot of unsaid unhappiness toward the whole thing...n i had some stupid money problem tt haunting like a never ending nightmare...ever since i started working, i had nv gotten a gd job tt can give me a gd pay den leave home on time...b4 i started in SCB, i thought DBS is super long working hrs who noe SCB is worst i nv reach home by 6.30pm i had to even work till 3.30am...all tis 1&1/2yr i work real hard to finish all i could but it was all nt recognized...i had to ot till i left wif haf my life den i had the same pay as dine who nd to work 10 plus dae a month...when pple can happily study their uni, i had to fret over the money for my sch...when i want to go interview to get a better pay, i was question y am i so ambitious wanted to haf tis haf tt in my life? do u think i like to fret over tis things? ask mi to throw away my trouble...u tell me hw? ask me to tell u wat happen, even if i sae it out u oso can't help me...it juz stick me to like a superglue i can't rid it off...i juz wish tt i am dead...i dun wish to live anymore but i can't commit suicide if nt the inssurance company will nt pay my family...i really wish to leave tis disgusting world...y didn't i really let u all eat curry chicken in phuket at the very least there is frenz to bring my ashes back to s'pore...i juz want to fade away n vanish into thin air....