being moody...

i had been super moody tis daes...dun noe y lei...the bank had a court case to fight n i had to appear as witness for the case...i am nt pissed off becoz i had to appear in court...i am unhappy tt my ex boss nv even prepare me or even ask me for consent abt it...he juz push me to the lawyers n think his job is done...i had no choice over tis, i had to appear in court if nt the email will nt be able to present as an evidence in court...i juz had alot of unsaid unhappiness toward the whole thing...n i had some stupid money problem tt haunting like a never ending nightmare...ever since i started working, i had nv gotten a gd job tt can give me a gd pay den leave home on time...b4 i started in SCB, i thought DBS is super long working hrs who noe SCB is worst i nv reach home by 6.30pm i had to even work till 3.30am...all tis 1&1/2yr i work real hard to finish all i could but it was all nt recognized...i had to ot till i left wif haf my life den i had the same pay as dine who nd to work 10 plus dae a month...when pple can happily study their uni, i had to fret over the money for my sch...when i want to go interview to get a better pay, i was question y am i so ambitious wanted to haf tis haf tt in my life? do u think i like to fret over tis things? ask mi to throw away my trouble...u tell me hw? ask me to tell u wat happen, even if i sae it out u oso can't help me...it juz stick me to like a superglue i can't rid it off...i juz wish tt i am dead...i dun wish to live anymore but i can't commit suicide if nt the inssurance company will nt pay my family...i really wish to leave tis disgusting world...y didn't i really let u all eat curry chicken in phuket at the very least there is frenz to bring my ashes back to s'pore...i juz want to fade away n vanish into thin air....

2 September 2009

well, my dae ain't gd at all...i had my interview for jetstar airways at 9...first we had some interaction session after which there are some activities to do...the first one was use 7 different shapes to make up 11 identical square....follow by a sales pitch...the last of the activities was to do the IQ test...the rest of the question ain't hard, the only one i cannot figure out was the identifying the cities on the map...well i sucks in that...last was the final one to one interview which i did not make it through...i am only abit away from the job...well, nvm at least i made it this far...i am contented liao...after tat meet mel n dine to go waterloo to pray at the temple for the trip tml...after tat we went to lai lai for dinner...after which dine n me went to the library for the phuket trip research...but we find nothing much from the book n dine can't find her baby blues...we went home after tt...when i reach home i hear tat my granny was warded into CGH...wow, wat next interview fail, down wif cold n cough, granny warded into hospital...haiz...well, the only positive thing i had was at least is nt the worst as i had been through b4....

3 Septmber 2009

i had went to hospital juz awhile ago...the doctor say my granny's heart was fine, it was juz an old relaspe of her previous condition...well had taken x-ray for waiting for report now to see if a sugery is needed or not...i can only wait till tonitez...i am flying off to phuket tonitez...so see ya on 6 September...