i had tender liao....

dear frenz,

i am super happy ydae...i had tender my resignation and had decided to move on to my study....but i had yet to work out for my loan but at least now i had got a plan though it nt easy but it ain't that hard to move on though...i finally can leave liao...i somehow feel bad for my colleague now as they will be taking on more work den ever...as i, shannon, amrita is all leaving...plus Esther will be on leave since september...OMG, i can imagine the amt of load they have....I am really sorry, but i can no longer take it as i had totally lost interest in the job due to alot of factors....but i still love all of you guys...really thank u so much for the guidence and care you all shown me...Esther and Joelle, i love the both of u most...i will miss u all...but we can always still meet up ritez...i dun mind go bala meet u joelle...lolz...i will miss Yusof and Linus too...coz they both of them always listens to me whine but they nv once complain abt it always let me whine...lolz...thank you so much the 4 person who play a real important role in my SCB life...love u all lotz...

Fretting...

yes, i am fretting over my school loan stuff...I can't get a guarantor for my loan...I am out of any ideas to be able to work my way through...my work took too much of my time n effort tat i can't focus on my study...in order to study i had to go hence i will work there as receptionist as it near my school even after it move it near my hse...but at tis stage nothing is cfm tt i can get the place...well 船到桥头自然直, if not worst come to worst drop into the sea lo...as i noe how to swim guess i still will nt die after all...i will find out more info from my school...i can't let my 4k to waste as i had pay it for the bridging course...my hard earn 4k...nw i die oso muz get degree so i can move on in life...i will nv be contented with the current life i had...I willingly to work judging by the amt of OT i work over the 1yr plus...i can cfm say i am nt a lazy person...i can say i am very hardworking to try complete my job...but i am really tired...well, juz let me be emo n i will get over it soon...i hope...

Moving on...

I had decide to leave my current company as I had completely lost interest in the job...but actually had to settle a lot of things for me to move out of the job...first i need to settle my school loan, cfm that I had get a full loan b4 i can start school...I will be asking Kelly Services to try get me the receptionist job in SCB at Plaza by the Park coz it near my school...part of the reason is openly known by u guys...part of it is I still love the pple there who they are Esther, Yusof, Joelle, Jessica, Jessie, Duncan, Liana, Farra, Gavin, Aloysuis, Andy, Linus, Rae, Sandra. They are really nice people to work with and they are very kind and helpful to me...Seriously, if nt for them I had long left the job...I will miss them alotz if i cannot secure the receptionist job outside...if that really the case, well I will have to move on...beside I need MONEY too...haiz...this is the word i hate and love most...yes, i had a love-hate relationship with money...hate - is becoz no money no tok, which most of the case i got no money...love - well who dun love money ritez the more the merrier...if pple ask me if i am happy with my life, i will tell u i am unhappy...i had too much on my plates that it is wearing me out...i haf to move on till i can no longer move...but i had no solution to some of the things on my plate...i hate to lose control of things in my life but everything seem to lose control in my life eversince dun noe when...我想哭但是哭不出来...i juz hope everything will be fine till i finish my school...

steamboat...yummy

we had steamboat at lip's hse todae...i started off with my cereal prawns cooking at 1.30pm, i ended the cooking at 3.30, after tt went to bath n chong down as wai, vin & ted was waiting for me in the car...lolz...i was late for haf an hr...lolz....sorry guys...reach lip hse at 4 plus...waiting for lip to finish his bathing den left for supermakert shopping at 5 plus...we brought a total of 108 plus of things...lolz...quite a lot...i juz love shopping at supermarket...went back to wash and prepare all the food at 6 plus...started the feast at 7.35 there about...lolz...with pei ming joining us a bit later...finish our first round at 9pm...den pei ming n rain went to buy ice cream...OMG...my fav...yummy *love* but it sinful...thank god they got buy dark chocolate ice cream...*my fav*...i drink a bit of the vodka tt we brought at giant as i am nt feeling very well hence only drink half a cup...haiz..better take care of myself...after we start our second round as there is still a lot of food left...we try to squeeze what we can into our stomach...we watch Harry Potter together n snacking while watching the moive...i had eaten alot today...shit, i sure gain weight...it look like it time to visit the doctor for dieting pills...lolz...philip say i eat one tub of ice cream after tat muz eat one tub of diet pills to balance it out...lolz...

the song that i love recently~~~妥协

你总爱编织谎言我负责配合表演
所有改变只为了进入你的世界
这情节重复了一百遍
才发现是你的心太野

你划定楚河汉界我不能轻易犯规

所有时间都是先给了你优先权

不自觉爱到不敢冒险

成了你的傀儡一年两年

才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协到头来还是无解

绑着你不让你飞

历史不断重演我好累

爱到妥协也无法将故事再重写

你已下最后通牒


我躲在我的世界
你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想再为你掉泪
我了解不会变不再徘徊
开始自己的明天

the song super sad, it saying that the bf having another gerl but becoz he is used to the gf hence did nt break up...den the gf cannot mingle into his world but dun want to leave either hence she is trying to give in to get into his world...well, i can only say the gf is really silly to give in and keep lying to herself that one day she will be able to change this...haha...but the fact is it might nt be the case...the world is a harsh place to live in...get out of his world if u think u r tired of it, get out when it no longer a 2 parties affair anymore...dun nd to hurt yourself further...i noe u all will be saying it easier say den done n will say i dun understand....haha, but in fact i do understand...i noe hw hard it is to retreat n draw out from it but i did it...so dun tell me u can't, it only u dun want to...

Vincent 's Bdae

First of all, Happy Bdae my dear frenz Vincent...dun emo so much as you had aged 1 yr liao..lolz..but i guess u now super happy...lolz...went to aston to haf dinner n celebration todae...the food there is nt bad n affordable...one main dish n two side dish cost me onli 6.50...worth it *thumbs up*...but the q took us 1 hr...almost die of standing on heels...lolz...really lots of work recently...super sianz as days goes by i getting more sick of my job...but well life ain't a bed of roses, so i had to face it...but i think my bed haf more thorns den rose....lolz...ok i better go shower and slp liao..tml got to work n CEO of Singapore SCB coming...haiz...

I am back...

wow, ever since the last post which was dated 21 March 2008...lolz...at the point when ot is nt needed for me...now at 15 JULY 2009 looking back...i had been oting since may 2008 till now...well, shld nt had say tt i haf no ot, it a bad omen a jinx...lolz..i had been through a lot of thing for the past 1 yr or so...the fall back in dec 08 let me had a cast on my right leg...it a unforgettable event for me...why make me unable to attend D&D which i waited anxiously for it...i noe u all will say there is still nxt yr but the thing is sometime when thing had been missed they will nt be the same again...though D&D is an annual event but the theme will be different, the pple attending will be different...u dun say u will understand hw i feel when u dun though i noe it out of gd intention...had been really moody & stress recently...so sian n sick of my work...i need to find back the passion that i had in the past...Dear Lord, please help me to find the strength n courage to carry on...got to go slp liao...nitez...will try to update so often as possible but no promise k...u noe money come first...lolz...juz kidding...love u guys...