我好累。。

我周围的人以很习惯了我的坚强的个性，所以他们都会说她会没事的。
她很强，没事的没事得。我真的没事吗。
我不这么觉得。我说了我有事但你们又无法帮我，
可是同时你们也会期待我告诉你们我有多么有事。
可是我就是没办法告诉你们我的感受也懒得解释
所以选者说我没事你们明白吗？
我只需要时间来冲淡所有的一切。。。
原来没事说多了人都会相信甚至连自己都会相信。多可笑啊。
人的大脑真是不可思议。

Juz unhappy

my gran had passed away...

the wake was i dun noe how to tell u, i was unhappy wif something tt my aunt did but wat to do? i will juz walk away n pretend tt i did nt see or hear, tt the best i can do...
i dun want to fight on my gran wake...everyone there is sad i dun want to add oil to the fire tt already burning...

Yinling mention tt gran's spirits told her tt she dun want anyone to cry on the charm or on the chu bin dae...she juz want us to be happy n live on...if we cry for her, she will be upset...all tt she ask for was when her death anniversary juz bring along her fav food n her fav clothes for her, she will be happy enough...for her grandchildren, muz study hard...last she requested us to send her off with a smile instead of tear...after hearing tt i juz broke down, i feel so heartbroken upon hearing tt...I am sorry gran, i can't send u off with a smile all i can do it try n0t to cry...but i can't even stop myself from crying...I MISS U GRAN, I MISS UR SMILE...when i shut my eyes, these dae my gran smile will juz appear in my mind....gran r u trying to tell me tt u r happy nw? gran can u juz appear in my dreams to tell me if u r no longer in pain or hw u r doing or r u adapting to the netherworld? all i ask for is you r at peace tt all...